Afternoon Gin, Because Rain

Not really. I mean the rain is real, but I’ve cut back on my afternoon gin dramatically even though yes, it’s raining as usual.  Also the evening wine. I’m not doing as much of that either. To be fair, I don’t really like wine. I know. No one likes a woman who doesn’t like wine. I’m more of a fruity beer or good cider kind of person. But those have too many calories/carbs so I decided Prosecco wasn’t just for celebrations and bought myself a nice wine cork meant to keep the bubbles in your bottle in the fridge. It works. I do like a glass of bubbly. But you can keep your red wines, thank you very much. You know what else I don’t like? Mushrooms. That’s right. Their texture is like rubber to me and I just can’t.

This lack of the ability to tolerate the texture of the mushroom is, apparently, related to my brain. Lately I’ve come to understand that there’s a fairly new word for how my brain works (or doesn’t, as the case may be): Neurodivergent. Huh. Go figure. I find this very amusing.  I mean, everyone has their quirks. Maybe I’m more quirky than some but I never considered myself ‘divergent’; a word which somehow seems like it probably means something close to antisocial, also something I’ve been accused of. Sure, I “diverge” from being told what to do. I consider myself somewhat of a free thinker who chafes at the constrictions of polite society, although I do have a moral compass. Of sorts. Maybe the life I lead “diverges” from the average path.

But as used here, this word that apparently describe my brain and its workings means neurologically divergent from the norm.  It’s a word reserved for people whose brain processes information differently, or learns somehow differently, or causes behaviors that are atypical. The only problem is that there are so many people whose brains are ‘atypical’ that it leads me to wonder why the typical people are not the divergent ones. Who gets to decide what is typical, anyhow? Probably someone who lives a beige life in a beige house and eats beige things. Like mushrooms. Phooey on them and their probably boring beige lives.

Making headway in that salon, just figuring out how everything fits together.

And where are all these other neurodivergent people I think I notice? Evidently they all live in Olympia, where people wear their divergencies on their sleeves; like they almost literally show them off. Maybe being neurodivergent is like the new blue/pink/green hair or sleeve tattoos. Like maybe it’s just all the rage right now and I’m actually normal. Maybe that’s why, overall, I like Olympia. I like that no one bats an eyelash when I do odd things like wear my little red wool pointy gnome hat well into the spring when it’s clearly a Christmas accessory;  or drive a Mexico van that was obviously completely paid for decades ago; or wear the exact same outfit for weeks at a time (a little trick I picked up as a cruiser and adopted in my land life because who cares? Not me, and clearly not you, either, because you never even noticed). Try that in some snooty city and see how far you get!

In Olympia, people generally smile at me and slow down so I can cross the street safely no matter how weird I look. One time I even got sent home with an entire box of fresh French pastries from the bakery on the corner. I feel certain it’s because I showed up in my red wool pointy hat since the van, which smacks just slightly of anti-capitalism and looks like it’s driven by someone whose idea of a perfect croissant can be found inside a cardboard tube in the refrigerated section of the local Safeway, was parked at the house. Or maybe they thought I just looked hungry. I’ll never know. I just smiled and thanked them because those pastries are like $4.50 apiece and French.

There are a lot of people like me here; people whose brains work in such a way that it’s impossible for them to remember how to tie a bowline even though they have learned it and relearned it countless times. My secret shame. I always blamed my brain, because why not? But now I understand that I was actually right about that, so I can move on and just accept it. After all, I’m divergent. Not anti-social, just a little bit different from a beige and boring definition of normal. Whew! I’m so glad.

We’ve had a bit of a delay working on Galapagos while Michael flew to Tennessee to make sure his mom was ok. She is fine now, which is a big relief to us all. But we were dead worried for a hot minute there and he felt compelled to go be with her, which is exactly how it should be. We are in the middle of putting the salon back together and it’s going much better than we had feared but we kind of lost our groove for a bit.

We were honestly so burned out from the big project of tearing the boat apart and getting the chainplates/rigging done that the puzzle that is the woodwork in the main cabin felt like a bridge too far. But enter the reality of the checkbook balance, not to mention the uphill trek of finding anyone who might do a better job than we could, and it seemed wise to just move forward the best we could. We have the port side done and I am close to finishing the starboard side. It’s coming together. When we move the cushions and mattresses back on board I have promised to open one of those bottles of Prosecco I have stockpiled around the boat. We will truly feel like we have arrived. Oh wait, no that’s not right. That day will be the day we reinstall the bow pulpit. THAT’s the day we will have arrived somewhere.

The list of tasks, it is still long.

In the past, our chainplates were hidden behind really beautiful teak boxes. Those boxes did look grand, but to take them off to check for leaks meant removing bungs, which then was a woodworking job to replace them and touch up the finish. We are not fans of hiding the chainplates, and so we are not going to do that again. With the addition of extra fiberglass to repair the considerable damage that had to be done to replace the backing plates, those areas where the chainplates are attached are now too wide to accept the box covers. So. We are going to show them off instead. I have a cunning plan on how to make them look attractive and to intentionally bring attention to them, my divergent brain at work here. We’ll do a post when that’s complete.

The old salon, where you can see the box hiding the chainplate in the background.

We’re getting there. Foreshadowing represented by the bright green paint on the fiberglass underneath the chainplates. And I look forward to refreshing the finish on this yellow cedar, which was finished first in 1991 and has not been touched since then. It’s good to know the previous owner of your boat so you can get this kind of intel about it.

On another note, it’s looking like spring outside, which I notice when I put my winter clothes on to go on my brief forays to the outside world. When we spent springs in Mexico on our boat, I did not suffer from allergies. Or from cold. Our third spring, I think, here and now I remember how spring hates me. Or maybe I hate spring. Or, more specifically, I love spring but my body hates it. The only cure is to get out of this environment again.  I am always cold here except during summer. And it seems I forgot that I also suffer from sinus infections here in the Pacific Northwest season that passes for spring, but in reality is just an extension of winter. This makes me unhappy. I want to go dig around in the dirt, but I’m allergic to everything growing in it, especially the molds that live in good soil. Dislike.

Speaking of spring, it feels wrong that I am not busy buying plants for the garden. Since I won’t be here to care for them, it doesn’t seem prudent to add to the gardens we already have.  I have spent the better part of spring for the last 35 years getting excited about growing new things and plotting where to place special plants in the garden so they show to their best advantage. I love plants. They are so mysterious in their ways!  In spite of the untenable amount of work our old yard in Lakewood was, sometimes I miss my garden there. I miss my greenhouse a lot. One year I started over 100 different kinds of seeds, after spending the long winter reading esoteric seed catalogs and going on a seed buying spree. Fun times!

A few hard spring plants I brought from our extensive Lakewood gardens.

We drove by the old place a few weeks ago and it was the first time I’ve actually cried about missing it. I disliked Lakewood, on the whole,  and do not want to live there again. But I miss my glasshouse.  It still looks like it did when I left. It still has the same “Dream” sign up above the door. It’s like I stepped away from it and never went back, which is actually what I did. Nothing has changed in the gardens that I can see from the road and it doesn’t look like anyone uses the greenhouse. I don’t think I can drive by anymore. It’s too hard.  The man who lives in the house now lost his wife shortly after buying the place. I imagine he does not use the greenhouse. It languishes. I hope he doesn’t languish with it. It’s a sad situation.

The glasshouse at our old place.

A couple of weeks ago our realtor friend, who is a really thoughtful man, called and told me he was listing a house and the owner had left a lot of nice gardening books behind. He wanted to know if I wanted them. His call came after a couple of weeks where I had been regretting getting rid of my rather extensive library of books about gardens and plants and all that stuff. I couldn’t believe it. Do I want the books? Hell, yes! He said they were nice books and I believed him. I made arrangements to go pick them up, not realizing exactly what I was getting into.

When I arrived at the house I was shocked to discover there were about 300 books, all of them like new. Books about garden planning, about famous gardens around the world, about perennials, bulbs, roses, annuals, exotic plants. There was a copy of almost every single book that I had got rid of when we moved out of our Lakewood house. Some of those books are hard to find anymore. Books by Ken Druse, Dan Hinkley, Rosemary Verey, Penelope Hobhouse… I stood, wordless, at this offering from the universal good. Knowing he really needed to move these out of the house, and not having the time to go through them at the moment, I just took them all, taking them to the car in piles heavy with the joy of discovery. It took me an hour to load them all. Good thing I still have my Mexico van! It was a treasure trove for a frustrated gardener.

Not even halfway finished bringing books to the Mexico van. A quick phone pic sent to Michael.

At the house, I unloaded them into the living room and commenced going through them all, picking and choosing those to keep and those to give away to others. It was glorious and gave me an exciting task to do while Michael was in Tennessee. Claire had just flown to Europe for a much needed vacation and I had the house to myself. The living room was literally filled with tall piles of the most glorious books. Just the sheer pleasure of looking through books that were like old friends and finding new ones to explore filled a couple of afternoons. I selected those I wanted and gave the others away but, honestly, if I were in a bigger house I would have bought an entire bookcase just to keep them all. Now I have my library back, which feels right even though I cannot be going about the business of building more gardens at the moment. It’s a promise for the future to have these reference books again. I do wonder about the gardener who bought all of these very expensive books and marked pages carefully with little sticky notes. Who was this person? And how did they manage to collect so many books? I would love to know that story.

After carrying all the books to the car, I noticed this lamp sitting on the floor near where I had been working through the piles. Feeling a little tingle of serendipity, and having been told I should take anything else I found in the house that I wanted, I decided I had room for this. It’s like the Universe spoke out loud in that moment and, in spite of how it’s a little bit kitschy, I felt like it made a certain statement. I’m not sure where it will end up; this house or another one. But with a new, neutral shade, it just might work. I might chose beige, the backbone that holds all other colors together.

I love a weird lamp. Especially with boats on it.

S/V Galapagos, standing by on channel 16 because our radio works again.

Also, it’s not lost on me that my photos are kind of all over the place lately. Someday I will get better at that again. Maybe when I stop using my cellphone and remember how to get other photos onto my computer.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Who Am I, Anyway?

I mean, lately, I’m not even sure. We have spent the month of November doing extensive house work, yet again. House work? What the.. what?  I don’t expect you to follow this without context, but play along.

When I last posted, we were deep into our 2022 refit of Galapagos. We were moist. We were cold. We dripped around; sad that the sun had finally decided to hibernate for the winter. The masts were pulled. The chainplates were pulled. I think I left out the part where we decided to just do the right thing and replace all of those. That will be about 1500$, please. Fine. We’ll just pay it. I cannot be bothered about what is, for this refit, chump change.  They’re the last chainplates we’ll replace in this lifetime. The bow pulpit is staged to be reinstalled. We think Mike may have fixed the leaking brand new hatch but we don’t actually know for sure. Because we are not there to monitor the drips. That is, we are in Tennessee. Not Olympia. Keep up, will you?It was not a pretty landing, but we made it back into the slip without harming anything or anyone. Win.

Having pressed pause on what was a hurried and stressful haul out, we escaped to sunny Tennessee to live the life of digital nomads and help Michael’s mom catch up on some maintenance on her beautiful old house. I swear to all the gods that as we pulled into her driveway,  the house breathed a giant sigh of relief and then, almost stealthily, began to allow things to fail; sometimes spectacularly. The dishwasher failed with water all over the floor. A drain pipe in the basement failed with water all over the floor. We saw a mouse in the kitchen…on the floor. (And where there’s one…there’s another upstairs in the closet noshing on one of my protein bars.)  Electrical plugs had seen better days and needed replacing. Gutters needed cleaning. A balcony railing upstairs had broken. Electricity to the pond outside had not worked in years, and anyhow the pond pump was kaput and the biological filter was sad. Ivy was systematically destroying parts of the garden and the brick walls along the road. The list was long and we’ve been incredibly busy but we realize that this is just what we do. We work on things. We do projects. We repair things and we maintain things. Maybe it’s something born into us. Our sense of accomplishment is great. We’re actually, I don’t know..really good at this.Just one of many gorgeous rooms in this historic home.

But I have to tell you: I am having more and more trouble reconciling all the different lives we seem to lead. There is the ‘everyday working for a living life’, there is the ‘refitting the old boat and spending all the money we’ve made working for a living’ life, there is the ‘we own an old house and like to keep it in good condition so we need to keep working for a living life’,  and now there is the ‘we need to go to Tennessee and visit, also work our day jobs, and give Mike’s mom a hand with her really lovely old home so it doesn’t fall apart life’. At one point, we had a cruising life.  So many lives. I’m having trouble keeping track of…me.

The transitions are becoming brutal. We had, at one point,  a life whereby we went on a vacation in Hawaii and scuba dived with Manta Rays, but I am not sure I was actually the person who did that. If feels too long ago and far away and it may have actually been my doppelgänger, such is the disconnect I feel from the person in those photos I have. Was that just a really good hallucination?  It was last March, if my calendar is to be believed. Surely that wasn’t so long ago?

Maybe it was me who took this photo. Maybe not. I’m not sure.

Anyway, transitions are becoming problematic. And not just psychologically. Also inter-dimensionally, even physically. Like I need at least two days to recover the sense of myself and where I fit in the time/space continuum after moving from one timeline to the next. I can’t be rushed. I need a long sleep and lots of psychological rest, or something. I’m not really sure what to call it. But I do tend to get extra cranky if I don’t get the long sleep and the lack of talking to other humans.  I am being literal here.

Sometimes we spend time staying at the house in Olympia for one reason or another, like taking care of our grand cat and dog. I sense more of that coming soon since I really do not love the idea of freezing my rear end off on a boat in the middle of winter in the dark/rainy/cold/hideous season we call winter. We haven’t discussed this with with our daughter, who lives in the house, but I feel sure a conversation will arise. Here I am in front of a roaring gas fireplace on a comfy antique couch and all I can think about is how cold the toilet seat is in the boat when I get up in the night. While I’m in this comfortable and beautiful house, I don’t even miss my boat. And I do not mind working on this house. It’s too lovely to mind what is, to me, a small amount of labor to keep it going.

It is not cold in here. This pleases me.

Anyhow, every time I go between the house and the boat I lose things: Electrical cords, shoes, clothing, skin care products. Always there is something that goes to live in the land of between and I am left feeling confused about where my things exist. I guess as long as it’s not my own self getting lost between timelines, then I should be ok with it. It’s not that I’m disorganized. Is it? It’s just that the boat is literally the only place that I know where things go. So when I’m at the house, or here in Tennessee, my stuff just kind of floats around finding its way to me, or not, as the spirit moves it. I’ve tried really hard this trip to keep track of my things. We leave next Friday. We’ll see if all my little life necessities find their way home with me.

I imagine we’ll hit the ground running with boat work, although I do hope to get a couple of days, or maybe a week, of sleeping and hanging around in my pajamas before that happens. Maybe at the house. Not at the boat. No talking, ok? I need peace and quiet in order to find myself again.

A little wildlife excitement from Tennessee. I have not seen one of these in decades.

The mast awaits and we are paying 8$/day just to let it sit there in the boatyard. Expensive real estate, that.  The mizzen is at the house, so we aren’t paying for that storage. Currently we are shopping for a rain cover to use while we are in the boatyard during December. All these changes sure make life interesting if I can remember which life I am leading at the moment. My cruiser life feels very far away and in a totally, completely different dimensional space just now. I hope I don’t forget how to do it.

The only sea around here is this sea of cotton growing in the fields. I am sure going to miss that blue sky when I get back to rainy old Washington.

Afternoon Gin (and Tonic)

If I’m going to have posts, plural,  named Afternoon Gin, I suppose I need to write more than one.  Lately I’ve been monitoring my gin intake and have decided that I need to cut back. This is a sentence I never thought I would need to write. But the delicious nature of the gin and tonic as a beverage, and the subtle yet real pain relief I get in my upper back from having one at the end of the day conspire to make me understand, for the first time ever, how a person might become accustomed to a drink every day. Not to worry. I will not be sliding into the unconscious medicinal use of alcohol. I’m just saying that for the first time ever I understand how such a thing might be possible for people.

I’ve been doing a lot of walking lately. We have only one car, and we like it that way. Overall, cars are not only expensive, they’re a pain in the ass. In fact, the car we have is the same old Mazda van we drove down to Mexico a few years ago and left to languish in a field during the hot Mexican summer one year. That may have been an unfortunate choice for the car, which has always felt delicate since then. Lately we have been planning a road trip of some length and the car needs some work, so I have been carless while it is in the shop.

View from a bridge in Olympia. If you drive this bridge, you don’t see the rainbow railroad tracks.

Did you know that the average car payment is now over 700$? I read that on NPR so it must be true. All I can think is, “Oh, hell no.”

Here’s an interesting result of being carless: when I dropped the car off a couple of days ago, I locked the door and handed over the keys to the mechanic, put on my hat and sunglasses, and set off to walk the 3 miles back to the boat, doing errands along the way. I felt positively free. That’s right. In a city of cars, in a culture where one is actually judged by the type of car they drive, I felt free as I walked away from our old Mazda van with the “You are a God Damn Magical Unicorn” sticker on the bumper and the plastic dashboard Jesus in the cabin. It occurred to me to wonder if I would still feel that way if it were over 100 degrees outside. Probably not. Walking three miles in 65 degrees is easy. In the heat, it’s a long way. I may enjoy walking, but I’m not unAmerican about it.

You do see a lot more of city life when you walk places. This is a mixed blessing. I avoid grown looking men on tiny bicycles. Sometimes this means I cross the street more often than is strictly necessary.

Also, there are three excellent bakeries within two miles of Galapagos. Three. One of them French. Two of them are uphill on the way, but downhill as you are eating your fattening (I mean flakey..) pastry.

Enjoying other people’s gardens on a walk.

Then there are people in cars doing questionable things. No, not that kind of questionable thing, although once in California I saw something going on in a car that I absolutely wish I had not seen. I mean, could they not have waited? Was having middle aged people walking close by the car part of their excitement? Was it a shock value thing? Or were they just so narcissistic that they thought people would enjoy watching them exhibit themselves? Maybe they thought we were too old to know what they were doing. We weren’t, more’s the pity. Or maybe they were just so, again, narcissistic that they felt like their exhibitionism was their right.  These were people I did not wish to know. I am glad to have left them in California.

And that makes me think about the time I was in another grocery store parking lot and came upon a man quite thoroughly enjoying himself with his pants down and his car door wide open. I’m pretty sure he was not targeting me with his need to have people witness his pathetic self. But I happened to be there. It’s one of those times I thought, later of course, of all the cutting things I wanted to say to him right in the moment. But the moment passed, fragile with shock, filled with disgust,  and I went away wishing I had passed by 5 minutes later. Or maybe 20 minutes. He seemed to be having trouble.

And they smelled good, too.

No, this was a different kind of questionable thing. I was standing at the crosswalk outside the Thriftway and yacht club down by the water, waiting to cross the street. I noticed the traffic coming out of the parking lot was stopped, even though the light was green. Then I noticed why. The first car in line, a white 4 door Jeep of late-ish vintage, was being driven by a man in his early 40’s or so. He had dark hair, looked like he was well groomed, kind of sporty looking, and had a big golden retriever, or maybe it was a yellow lab. I got confused about the dog because I was distracted by the fact that he was pointing his phone directly at me and taking my photo. WTF, dude? Why are you taking a photo of an older woman in a blue hat and sunglasses,  pulling a little grocery cart packed with the gleanings of her errands, and walking back to her boat? I am not a tourist attraction, mister. It was…unsettling. I mean, why? What’s he going to do with that photo? Do I want to know? And if he makes money off it, should I not be offered my cut? Is he a fricking weirdo? I gestured wildly at him as he put his foot on the pedal and turned left. I hope he saw me. Or maybe I hope he didn’t. I’m not sure, actually. I don’t carry a gun. Maybe I should. No. I definitely should not.

I think it’s important to note that I don’t believe for a moment that any of these experiences were targeted at me personally. I mean, walking through the fields of life, you’re bound to step in a few cow patties along the way. They’re there. You can’t always see them before you step in them. These men in cars? They are just cow pies to me. I rinse off my shoes and carry on. It’s not my job to take care of their karmic debts.

I’m continuing to work on refinishing the teak dodger. Five years from now I’m probably still going to be working on that because I can only do about an hour or so at a time before I start hurting. At this point, all the wood is at an angle, most of it above my shoulders. Part of me wonders if I can just go to sea and let the old paint and varnish  wear off naturally, sanded away by salt and wind. The outside looks good. Just don’t come aboard and we’ll both be happy.

Mike removed the windlass from the aft deck. It’s a great windlass but we have only used it twice and during one of those times we determined that it was too dangerous for us to use it regularly. We were anchored off one of the islands at the mouth of the Sea of Cortez and we engaged in what is commonly known as a ‘shit show’ with that windlass. It was dark. It was windy. It was not pretty or safe. We are having to make a lot of decisions about how this boat is outfitted so we can move forward with phase two of the cunning plan. I am glad we have some experience using the boat the way we, personally, use it. The removal of the windlass is one of those decisions I hope we don’t regret, but if we do, so be it. We have other ways of setting a stern anchor if we absolutely want one, and removing it makes way for a radar pole. You can’t have everything on any boat.

We  found a really nice radar pole set up at Longship Marine, the used marine goods chandlery in Poulsbo, WA. It cost us easily less than a third of a new aluminum pole and it came with a stout davit we can use to lift the outboard. I am thrilled that it’s made of aluminum and doesn’t require polishing.  The davit is another one of those modifications we hope will allow us to sail more gracefully into our older years. See what I did there?

We got out of Poulsbo’s Longship Marine for less than 1000$. For that we got: the aluminum pole/davit system, a set of Magma Rock and Roll stainless steel stabilizers for all those rolly anchorages where other people throw out a stern anchor, a dinghy swim ladder, a personal locator beacon, some mahogany for finishing out the hatch in the galley, a huge EasyStow inflatable fender (10$! I was so excited!), and a hefty stainless receiver piece to sit that aluminum pole into (after we isolate the two metals, or course). We felt positively smug. Then we went for celebratory ice cream.

What a haul! And our Mexico van came through for us again. The pole just barely fit inside.

The removal of the windlass revealed some wet core in that area, probably as a result of the time we were docking this beast down in Astoria and the transmission stuck in reverse, causing us to hit a big steel fishing boat behind us. That was a very bad day. Anyway, Mike cut the fiberglass (it’s really thick, you guys) and scraped out the rotted wood. We’ve had some gentle heat on it since then, drying everything out really well. He’s going to replace the wood with a piece of Divinycell core material and epoxy. They had some Divinycell at the local chandlery, in their new consignment section. I hope that place takes off. It’s easy walking distance to the boat.

Oh, by the way… that bid we got for replacing the whole exhaust pipe? 1700$.  Um. Yet another “Hell No!”  from Team Galapagos. We were supposed to get two bids: one for replacing the flexible coupling and one for an entire new exhaust pipe. We got one bid, for the new pipe, then had to ask for the other bid. 450$ to replace the O’Reilly coupling. We opted to replace the O’Reilly because the pipe was still in good enough condition that we don’t actually need a new one. Seriously, do we look like people who just throw money at a problem? I mean, did he SEE our van? 2002, baby! Even our plastic dashboard Jesus is showing wear.

Scene that cannot be appreciated via automobile.

Lately my Facebook feed has been filled with ads that include recipes for yummy looking mixed drinks. It’s like the algorithm finally, after all these years, got it right.

Michael is cursing from the shower, where he is changing out a faucet. I heard banging before the many very specific words. This doesn’t sound good. I need to run.

I leave you with this dock friend.

 

S/V Galapagos, standing by. Sort of. I mean, our radio isn’t actually hooked up right now.